Kreeesmus.

We are all moved into our fabulous new house on North St. It is cozy, fabulous and ours for the next few months. Dustin is cooking in the kitchen, our friends are in the living room, and we are all cozy and blessed to be spending Christmas Day together.
Much Love to Everyone from Asheville.

Letting Go.

Why do we do things and who do we do them for?
This is a question that I have been asking myself more and more lately. If you were to let go of what people thought of you and what was expected of you would you still be doing what are you are doing RIGHT NOW?

I have been having emotional and spiritual breakdowns, epiphanies and catharsis's quite a bit these past few months. Especially when it comes to the subject of school. I like school and I am good at it. But, there is no major that is speaking to me in my life right now. No degree that I feel passion for, or see any fulfilling path in. Not to say that I won't ever, but I had to ask myself it I was doing it for myself or for society. I feel an obligation to graduate college in a timely fashion, for my family, and for society in general. It is what I was told I should do for most of my life.

I am letting go of should. I am doing my best to leave it by the wayside as I embark on a new journey of embracing the want, passion and desire. I have had a deep connection with yoga for the past ten years or more. I have been flirting with becoming trained as a teacher since I left college at 18. And that is exactly on what I plan on finally doing. Once I get the money saved up I am going to a yoga teacher training course here in Asheville. No better place to do it really. There are plenty of options int his New Age city to choose from-and I am thrilled to dive in and sink myself into asanas, vinyasas and ancient text reading for ten months.

I also intend on getting back to into theater. It has always been a passion of mine, and I am eager to show off my chops. I will be auditioning for Enchanted April at the Asheville Community Theater downtown. I LOVE acting. I LOVE yoga. I LOVE writing too, which is why I am still planning on attending some writing workshops and classes at the community college. I am so thankful that I have such an amazing partner who held me as I cried over what I should do and told me this:

"Do what you WANT. Not what you think you SHOULD. You have my support one hundred percent. And no matter what you do, I know you'll be amazing at it."

What a guy.


It is scary at first, to let go of the SHOULD. But so very liberating. I want to do something I Love, something I am Passionate about, and something that Fulfills me.
I am eager to start this journey, and excited to see where it takes me.

Block.

Looking at how much time has passed with no entry gives me butterflies. What to write. how to write it. I am so stuck in my head of late that I have no idea where to begin. Just know that I am thinking. And that thought it sure to manifest itself as writing soon enough. Much Love and Happy Holidays.