Friday, September 30, 2005

For Michelle

To my little Danish Crumpet who is my loyal reader and friend FOREVS.

Oh, Dane. You-who dons the Euro sheek hipper than us scrappy Portlanders fashion. Who speaks in low tones in the most adorablest accent around. Who drinx wine with me on the porch no matter what the weather, and leaves your closet doors open to my frumpy ass. You who has a strange foreign song for every frickin occasion in the book and bakes even foreigner confections for us to eat. YOU. Oh, you.
Never change-except if its to get cuter than you already are(which is like, SO not possible), or to pick up some of my valley girl accent(I'll like, TOTALLY coach you!)
Oh Dane. My little Danish Dane from Denmark. Will you marry me?
xoxoxoxox

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

southun livin

Dustin and I get off the plane in the Raliegh/Durham airport of North Carolina-our prospective new home state. The wet air clings to us on the way from the plane to the gate. I look at Dustin and say with a grin "Welcome to the East coast baby!(its his first trip to the other side of the country)" The humidity of those parts envelops you in a sticky embrace, and I find myself having flashbacks to the weather of SE Asia during monsoon time-save the monsoon showers . No more Northwest dryness, coolness or mildness-were in the Carolinas-and I am ready to explore!!

Our rental car is a short distance from the terminal. When we arrive the man behind the counter grins and hands us a cold bottle of water and says in an authentic drawl "How Y"ALL doin?" (emphasis on the y'all mind you)-and proceeds to show us a map of North Carolina, with all the places we (aka Y' ALL) must see. "Naya(translation: "now"), y'all gotta know that the cop tends to hang out from Hickory to here, just waitin for y'all to speed on by. Slow down for about 20 miles and y'all should be OK." The O in the OK, is almost impossible to phonetically describe-but not the flat O, of the west. More like it is dripping off the tounge like some sticky, sweet substance. The mouth closes around it and draws it out for an impossibley long time. It sounds positively delicious-even coming out of the mouth of a rental car salesmen. Dustin and I are amused and delighted-not only at his accent, but at the southern hospitality that is simply no joke in these parts. We will encounter heaps more of it as we journey further along.

Our rental car attained (a beige Ford Focus with strange cement bloches on it-HOT!) we take to the open road. Our first leg of the journey is short-only to Chapel Hill- a college town about 25 min. from the airport. Big live oaks stand along the streets of campus, and many of the buildings have the tall columns in front that remind one of the old south. I want to see someone dressed like Scarlett O'hara perched in front of one of them. But, it is 2005 after all and the buildings are surrounded by students dressed in GAP, Abercrombie and other such 21rst century fashions. We stay one night here and dont mind it too much, but it is not where we see ourselves settling. Too flat, too hot-too many 18 year old frattys-not enough....something.

The next day we head out on I-40 to the city of Asheville-our main destination nestled in the Swannanoa valley between the Great Smokey Mts. and the Blue Ridge Mts. Our trip there is shorter than expeceted and the closer we get to the mounains the more beautiful the scenery becomes. On the way, we pass many cars with the confederate flag in the window, or on the license plate, and it makes me think of the Civil War and how many battles were fought on the land that we were crossing. In many ways, the south is like a window out of time, where the history sticks to the people like the humid air, and relics of it stand tall and present in these modern times. Talking to some old timers you would think that the Civil War happend last year-and the hurt and bitterness of it is still immediate. Despite the disturbing history in these parts and the insistance with some people to hold on to ancient wounds- I really do love the old feel of the south. Perhaps it is because I am from a fresh and new pioneering state-but I am fascinated by the south and its old, gnarled, awful, beautiful past.

We arrive in Asheville-and it is all that we hoped it would be. After we go the Bed and Breakfast that our wonderful friends Jessie and Eddie own and allowed us to stay in for FREE-we set off to explore the city. The downtown is almost all brick buildings and old architecture. The streets are narrow and old, like many east coast cities-and the whole area has a charming feel. There are no coroporate chain business's allowed in the downtown area, so you see only local businesses. It is a wondeful feeling. The arts are alive and well in the city, and being a college town, people from all around come to reside there. It reminds me a little Portland(although the population is only 70,000), nestled away in the south. It a liberal bubble where hippies and artists congregate and coffee shops abound. The "real world" lies just outside in the smaller towns surrounding Asheville. The campus of UNCA is a lovely, wooded haven and very small for a public university. The city is almost entirely surrounded by national forest(the Pisgah N.F) and the old, southern mountains-although a shadow of our native Cascade Range-are so beautiful. After a few days in and around this southern city-Dustin and are seduced. He loves the fact that there are actually micro breweries here, and I am still obsessing over the accents.
"You just said "y'all" again." Dustin says to me over a breakfast of eggs and grits.
"Oh, I know baby-y'all better get used to it we're gonna move down to these here parts." I say, my forced accent dripping with the slow, sweet ohs.
He grimaces, and grins at the same time. Knowing me well enough to know that I will soak up the colloquialisms here like they are going out of style.

We leave the lovely mountains behind us after 3 short and sweet days, with a feeling of excitement in our bellies. If all goes well, we will be moving here in July-a new life of academic and southern living ahead of us. As we descend into the flat lands of eastern N.C and the humidity of late summer envolopes us in its sticky glory-I am happy we are heading home. Despite my excitement of our prospected move and the new life that lies ahead of us-I am soo looking foward to the cool, bug free breezes of the Northwest for 10 more months. And, after getting off the plane in The City of Roses- I look to Dustin with a smile and say "There's no place like home y'all!"

Monday, September 26, 2005

writers block

It creeps up inside me like constipation. Nothing moving. Nothing releasing. Just sitting inside me and festering. All these ideas, muddled together, with no clarity, no direction. They creep along inside my brain looking to be released in a lovely, litereary flow. I look outside for inspiration and see the morning light on the trees, so lovely-but wait!! i have already written about morning on Clinton street. Hmm... back to the ol proverbial drawing board.

Coffee and a shower. That should do it. Hot water flowing inside and out. Should loosen something up. Thats it! Thats the plan. Wash out the mildew and start afresh! I pat myself on the back and prepare for the rituals. Coffee first. Of course.
And after? Hopefully a brilliant, well crafted piece of prose about my recent trip to North Carolina and my newfound obsession with the south.

Friday, September 16, 2005

colorblind

Why have we, as a nation, become obsessed with color coding ? From the ridiculous homeland security rainbow to red and blue states-its all just too simplistic and strange to me. In the Vanity Fair magazine that I most recently recieved-there is an advertisement picturing a party in a high rise building with beautiful, futuristic looking people drinking the alchohol that is being advertised. What caught my attention though was the wording at the bottom of the advert.-it says: "Blue state independence party year2033" While it was slightly amusing, it struck a chord in me that made me uneasy. Is that advertisment a sign of times to come? Is this really the direction in which we are heading? I wonder....

In the wake of the hurricane disaster in Gulf Coast I have heard a great many comments. Mostly sympathetic but many harsh and cruel. The one that stuck out the most though was this: "Oh, well-at least it hit a red state-ha ha." Although this comment was not heartfelf it got me back to thinking of how we, as Americans, are oversimplifying matters that are so much more complex. Politics are a complicated and personal matter. We all have strong beliefs that we stand by, but isnt the human brain more complex than just red or blue(this is excluding W.'s obviously)? I am, as they say, a" flaming liberal" . Most of my beliefs-pro choice- pro higher taxes-anti Bush. are about as "blue" as they come. But, I am also a strong believer in states rights-and isnt that a tradionally "red" (aka Repubican) value? Does this mean that deep down I am really....purple?

In the aftermath of Katrina "reds" and "blues" alike were helping eachother-while the "Terror Alert" color was shifting from yellow to orange and back down again. During this virtual RAINBOW of political and human chaos-who was really thinking of such nonsense anyway? We are Americans and human beings above all else. And when I think of the oversimplification that is going on around us at the hands of the media and powers that be it makes me angry, sick and mostly sad. Because this color coding comes from a very black and white mentallity-a mentallity that I hope to see fade away in the not so distant future. We, and the states that we reside in are so much more than "red" and "blue". I urge everyone to take a compassionate, closer look at ourselves, our friends, enemies, neighbors-and country in general. And I hope we all ultimately realize that complexity is a beautiful thing.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

morning on Clinton street

When I actually drag myself out of bed at this hour(8:30am) I am reminded of how this must be my favourite time of day. Walking outside I breathe in the chill of the air still wet with the nighttimes embrace, and listen. There is so little noise, even at this hour(which is hardly early Michelle would remind me-she has been at work for over an hour) and there is something so comforting in that. A fresh beginnning-crisp and light.

The cobwebs from my mind are washed away with each hot sip of chai. The kitties stretch and meander around the food dish-breakfast time for all. Joggers run past the front window, healthy and motivated(I guiltily observe, as my fat rolls seem to grow as I watch them). NPR drones on in the background-the world news-depressing and linear, but I cannot seem to turn it off. It is all part of it. The smells, the sounds of home. The sun rises slowly in the east and I feel like stretching my whole body towards it-fililng myself up with the potential of this day.
At this hour-anyting seems possible.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

After reading my last comments, my friend Kim astutely stated: "So, where is the ranting!?!" Point taken-and perhaps I should change my title to "Rose City Reflections"-but first: an attempted rant.

A word on Portland's hipster bike riding snobs:
Hey you-yeah YOU with your pant leg rolled up on your vintage jeans and your oversize black bag slung just so over your skinny, tattooed little arm. You who wears buddy holly glasses, Betty Page bangs and keeps upgrading your earplugs to ridiculous gages. You vegan vagabond who hails predomitnately from "NoPo" and turns your anti corporate nose up to anything and everything you can. You twenty something bike messanger who agressively hogs the roads from other bikers(or so say my biking friends) and glares at the motorists-villifying our fossil fuel follies. You...you... YEAH YOU! GET OVERYOURSELF!!!! Take er down one notch and climb down off your "high horse" pimped out peddling pile of poo. Wipe those dreads out of your face and smell the organic free trade soy stumptown latte my little eco-nazis. Cuz your giving bikers a BAD NAME!!!
Just because ya got TWO wheels instead of four doesnt mean you have to act so STUCK UP!! And for your information, I LIKE my red, industrial steel foreign made fossil fuel guzzling pickup truck! And if you acted a little nicer when we share the road together, maby I would tell you that I have actually considerd making it run on biodiesal. But noooooooooo-you cut me off, flip me off, and leave me seething staring at your anarchist patch saftey pinned perfectly to your black hoody. Why like this little biker? WHY. LIKE. THIS? Had I been a meaner person I would have passed your ass in a flash thrown a steak in your face-and left you choking on my fumes on the way to Texaco. But, instead I will leave you with a simple plea: BE NICE YOU LITTLE BASTARDS. For the sake of bikers everywhere. Because, truth be told, I am beginning to hate you all.

How is THAT for a rant eh? I have to admit it was fun-but next time you can expect more "reflections".

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Anticipating Autumn

Sunday has arrived once again, and with it autumn slowly blows the summer further and further away,untill it is only an anticipated season yearned for in the coming year. I have to say, it doesnt bother me....I wipe off the sumner sweat and close my eyes ready for crisp air and crunchy leaves. Always one to jump ahead-my mind paints pictures of pumpkins that are sure to arrive on porches sooner than later. But, oh, not yet-our tomatoes are still ripening despite the chilly nights and their deep red reminds me of a season that is still clinging.

So, on this Sunday afternoon in the City of Roses-I breathe in the hot air and sip white wine(it is still summer after all!) and try to enjoy the fact that I can wear a tanktop on the front porch amongst the hanging green wisteria. Secretly though- I dream of sweaters and hats and crisp wood on fires and smile to myself when I see the leaves our wisteria browning in the sun.

So-hows that for a first time blogger? I'll leave you with a promise:they will only get better from here.
Adios